Monday, January 14, 2008

There's Nothing Like A Woman's Love

What is so special about the love of a woman? What isn't? I think that's a better question. A woman's love is pure.. it's deep.. it's unconditional... committed and completely unaware of any faults that her man has.

I began to think today about how a man's love for a woman is so much different than a woman's love for a man. It's not different in a bad way.. it's just different. A woman gives so much of herself to her man and asks for nothing more than his time and commitment to her.

I find it funny when guys say, "Yeah, those women just want all or nothing!" and they say it like it's a bad thing. I just don't think they realize what they will be getting in return when they do give her their all. You are gaining a person in your life that is going to love you no matter what, be there for you no matter what and never want anyone but you.

We've dreamed about loving "this man" the one we are going to marry for as long as we can remember. So once we find him we don't ask for much. (the good girls don't) All we want to do is love you forever, take care of you, and share our lives with you. So... I can't see what is so scary about that to a man...

I've come to find out with men it's more about the way you go about saying and wanting these things though than the things themselves. You can't be pushy.. you can't crowd them.. you can't rush them.. let them me, let them take their time.. which is another reason why I think that the love of a woman is so special.. we are by nature, patient. We will wait. Just don't make us wait too long.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

It's a New Year.. It's a New Chance.

First off, let me say that I have not been keeping up with my blog lately. I have been busy with school and work and quite frankly have just been too lazy to post. Oops! ;)

Well, I decided that with the New Year starting today, what better time to get you all up to speed on what's going on in my life and what I have been dealing with and looking forward to for this coming year.

Well, I finished my first semester of classes at UNT on the 12th of December and couldn't wait for the break to get here, it was much needed. Although, I am starting to look forward to this next semester, it only puts me closer and closer to graduation day and the beginning of my teaching.

The last time I posted about a job that I was supposed to start was at a swim school in Plano. Well, I ended up getting a call back from a pre-school right in Denton that was much more convenient for me. But that's just the half of why I decided to take the job. One, it's working with children. Two, it's a Christian pre-school, I love that I can teach children about the love of Christ everyday at school. Three, it just feels like where I needed to be. I have the greatest children in my life right now. I get to spend time with kids from one year of age to five and I love every minute of it. Who REALLY looks forward to going to work? Well, that's me now. I have just fallen in love with all my kids. :)

I have been spending a crazy amount of time at home and visiting all my friends and family, this is another blessing to having a job like I do. I get to be home so often. I really am blessed to have this job. So that's pretty much getting you a little up to speed on my life as of now, but what about where I'm going with my life? What about the goals I will be setting for myself for this New Year?

Well, I have to say that I am looking forward to 2008. I need it to be anything but 2007. I had a crazy whirlwind of a ride toward the end of it and just wish to put it all behind me, move on and enjoy what's headed my way.

The main thing I want to concentrate on this year is myself and my friends and family. I have said this before, but it is SO SO important to know yourself and be comfortable with who you are before you can be able to be that way with others. Although, I am on the right path and headed that direction I just pray that I stay headed that way and not lose myself and all of the progress that I have made in this last year or so. I also want to concentrate on my family and friends. It's something that so many people take for granted, including myself so I want to focus on putting my loved ones higher up on my priorities. I want to really listen when people talk and the biggest thing that I want to do in this New Year is to seek out others who need help and do all that I can to help them. I really am going to try to be as selfless as possible this year......

Hmm... I was thinking today about when I was younger and how I thought my life would be today. I was supposed to graduate college this year. That's not happening, instead I had to make it 2009. I always thought I'd be finishing school and engaged at the age I am now. It's so crazy to think of all the things you thought would be done in your life by now and they aren't. But, life doesn't work that way. You can't plan it. You can try, but in the end it's going to work out the way it wants to not the way you want it to. I can respect that now that I am older. I can respect that these things have not happened in my life yet because either I wasn't ready for them or there were and still are so many lessons to be learned in my life before I can move on to the next chapter.

What if I was married right now? How different would my life be? I can't imagine it, and I don't want to. You know why? Because I'm not ready for anything like that. God has not fully prepared me for that stage in my life and I'm just thankful that I haven't been tempted with that decision because I wouldn't want to make the wrong one. I do believe that things work out for themselves and the way they are supposed to. Who am I to put these time limits and dates on my life when there is no way in the world that I myself can ever meet these limits. So, this year... I'm living life, just living it... not worrying about these things that were "supposed" to already happen for me. Instead, I will continue to be thankful for the things, people and lessons that have already happened in my life. Afterall, I don't want to forget that the present is a gift.